"I've been working out, I'm huge"

Ok, the countdown is on like Donkey Kong! I've got a convention to get to in 60days! I've got to get my arse into shape in the next 60days, cause there will be nomming and drinking and general funness to be had!

I've been soooo bad for too long. Eating some bad stuff on the weekends, lots of bad stuff on the weekdays with snacking....yeah. it's got to stop.

So, what's the plan? lot of water, limit the juices. lots of fresh fruit. lots of soup and salads. lots of working out on more days.

gonna do this! :)

Killing time

• Have you ever:
• 1) Self harmed? -no
• 2) Got into a real fight? -yup
• 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? -yes
• 4) Tried to commit suicide? -no
• 5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? -"fine" yes, I have
• 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?-yes
• 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? -yes
• 8) Accused someone of using you? -not in recent memory
• 9) Shoplifted? -nope
• 10) Gotten drunk/high? -drunk? duh, high - nope
• 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? -duh! (hell yeah!)
• 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? -nope
• (Right now) Are you:
• 13) Suicidal? -no
• 14) Bored? -kind of
• 15) Avoiding someone? -not currently
• 16) Avoiding some task? -yes
• 17) Depressed?-no
• 18) Crying?-no
• 19) Annoyed with a friend? -nope
• 20) Worried and confused about something important to you? -yes
• Do you:
• 21) Get depressed easily? -i don't think so
• 22) Get jealous/envious easily? -I'd like to think not
• 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? -absolutely
• 24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? -(I don't quite understand the question)
• 25) Try hard in all your classes at school? -did, when I was attending
• 26) Go out drinking? -yes
• 27) Smoke cigarettes? -no
• 28) Smoke weed? -no
• 29) Do any hard drugs? -no
• 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? -NA
• 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? -yes
• 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? -not really
• 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? -yes, temporarily
• 34) Believe people deserve second chances? -yes, for the most part
• 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying) -not necessarily
• 36) Think things will get better? -sometimes
• 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? -sometimes
• 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest) -I guess on some level, but for the most part, I'd like to think I don't or at least try not to do so.
• Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
• 39) Long hair OR short hair? -Short to med length
• 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? -nice smile
• 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?
• 42) Shy OR open? -a little of both is exciting
• 43) Eyes OR body? -eyes!
• 44) Religious OR non-religious? -as George Michael would say, "you gotta have faith" :)
• 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? -a little both, if I have to choose one, caring
• 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? -Prefer non-straight edge
• 47) Piercings OR no piercings? -some piercings
• 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? -either
• 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? -a little both
• 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? -parents
• Would you:
• 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? -have
• 52) Smoke weed? -nope
• 53) Smoke cigarettes? -nope
• 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? -nope
• 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? -would, eventually
• 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? -nope
• 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? -would try
• 58) Join a band as a part time activity? -ha, if they had no talent and wanted me to, sure.
• 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? -of course
• 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? -yes
• 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? -ha, did it for a year.
• 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? -if it came down to it, yes.
• 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? -all the time.
• 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? -yes
• 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people? -yes (really? you couldnt' use a different or better term?)
• 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? -no
• 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? -yes
• 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? -no
• 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you? -not unless it was needed, i hope. 
• 70) Sleep naked? -ha, sure.
• You can only choose one:
• 71) Black or Orange? -blakck
• 72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? -post-hardcore....under protest.
• 73) Cellphone or Computer? -cell
• 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? -Chocolate milk
• 75) Tumblr OR Friends? -Friends
• 76) Mac OR PC? -PC
• 77) TV Shows OR Movies? -Movies
• 78) Old bands OR new Bands? -OLD BANDS!
• 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? -Alt Rock
• 80) Reading OR Listening to music? -Listening!
• 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice. -Coke, better variety
• 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? -staying who I am.
• 83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge? -
• 84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice. -neither
• 85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice. -neither
• 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? -boring. lol. documentary
• 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? -space, if ever possible
• 88) Shoes OR Shirts? -shoes
• 89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? -neither
• 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice. -Always, stay in school. the rewards outweigh the struggles.
• Almost over:
• 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest. -as much as possible
• 92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family? -fairly
• 93) Do you want to travel when you are older? -i'm older and I still want to travel
• 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? -maybe
• 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? -yes
• 96) Rather be the opposite gender? -no
• 97) What will you name your son/daughter? -Samuel or Samantha
• 98) Do you get harassed more than most people do? -no
• 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason. -most bands currently played on the radio pretty much suck.
• 100) What makes you a bad person in your mind? -ha, do you have the time?

Con...the fall

haha, i just read one of the main guests of a conference i'm attending in july isn't locked into the conference. 

excellent! /sarcasm

if it wasn't for my friends who are already going to the conference, i might consider selling my top ticket.

they are the saving grace for this trip, for sure.

this conference seems to be falling apart as the wks go by. i sure hope that isn't the case, but my hopes are dwindling.

it will probably be the first and last of its kind. so, i might just stick with it. ;)

-edit-
so, the main guest just restated that she'd love to attend, schedule permitting. hmmm. more drama than i'd like, but i should have known than to fall for a tweet. lol.

so, expectations back down to a "normal" level...eh. lol.
what's our catch phrase....whatever. i'm down to just enjoy the company and time away from work.  ;)