5 Foods...yummmm!

1. Albondigas made by ma!
2. Cafe du Monde's amazing beignets
3. Pizza
4. Salmon
5. Cookies (does cookies count?)

5.a. if cookies don't count, then Peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches or Pastrami Dip from The Hat from Cali. :)

Travel Destinations...6 Places I Want to Go

...in no particular order
1. New York
2. Paris
3. One of the Carolina's
4. Oregon
5. Rome
6. Australia

Honorable  Mentions:
Savannah  GA
Seattle, WA
Back to New Orleans
Venice or Florence, Italy

Bucket List Bands

Great topic hear on Mike and Winey on ktar.

Would love to see before they die, you die or they retire.

List is limited to bands i haven't seen thus far.

1. AC/DC
2. Bon Jovi
3. Joan Jett
4. Heart
5. Fleetwood Mac
6. Journey
7. Godsmack
8.

I Want....You only get 7

I Want...
1. The ability to eat anything i want and not gain weight. Ahhh to be in my early twenties again. lol
2. My friends and family to be happy & healthy.
3. A brownie
4. To successfully train my dog.
5. More energy.
6. To be able to sleep the whole night through.
7. To be a decent cook, or dare I say, a good cook.

Fears...8

disappointing people
having made the wrong decision
realizing I'm a fraud
hurting people i care about
being taken advantage of
taking advantage of someone
that i've been unfair
dentists

84 Questions

1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs
1. Stranger in a Strange Land - 30 STM
2. Bad Kids - Lady Gaga
3. The First Single - The Format
4. Awake - Godsmack
5. Let the Drummer Kick - Citizen Cope
6. O'Sailor - Fiona Apple
7. Big City Nights - Scorpions
8. Making Out in the Library - Kinch
9. Anything We Want - Fiona Apple
10. The Long Way Home - Norah Jones
2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you? - One of the Carolina's or Paris or Florida. I've always wanted to visit the Carolinas and Paris recently and would love to go back to Florida again. Yes, I would take someone with me.
3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen) Blue or black pen.
4. Favorite month and why? Feb or Oct. Feb has been good to me in recent years and October...Halloween and Oktoberfest!
5. Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them. Not really.
6. Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are. pencil, stack of cards, glasses.
7. What brand logo is closest to you currently? Samsung.
8. Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favorites? yes, I play board games on occasion. No faves.
9. A musical artist you love that isn’t well known - Black Carl
10. A musical artist you love that is well known - Tool
11. What is your desktop background currently? - The one I'm typing on is black.
12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them - Ma, cell phone.
13. First color name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow - black
14. What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in? - clock, wrist watch
15. What kind of headphones do you use? - sony
16. What musical artists have you seen perform live? - too many to list
17. Does virginity matter to you? - no
18. What gaming consoles do you or your family own? - I don't own any. Brothers own PS2, PS3, XBOX; Ma - Wii
19. What pets do you have? What are their names? No names, but I currently have two dogs.
20. What’s the best job you’ve ever had? - this one.
21. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? - fast food joint
22. What magazines do you read, if any? - none.
23. Inspiration behind your URL? - don't have one.
24. Inspiration behind your blog title? - Just some Random Thoughts
25. Favurite item of clothing? - band tshirts
26. Are you friends with any exes? - eh
27. Name at least one book you loved as a child. - The Giving Tree
28. What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation? (eg. AU English, US English) - US English
29. What email service do you use? - gmail, hotmail, yahoo, work.
30. Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in? - pirate flag
31. What’s your favorite number, and why? Yes, I have one, but I'm not going to write it.
32. Earliest moment in your life you can remember? - my grandmother's house
33. What did you have for dinner yesterday? - enchilada's
34. How often do you brush your teeth? - at least twice a day, sometimes more.
35. What’s your favorite candy/chocolate? - snickers
36. Have you had other blogs on Tumblr? Do you have any other blogs currently? - nope
37. If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat? - food
38. What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of? - At the moment, probably none.
39. If you could study anything, what would it be? - Space
40. Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick) - chapstick
41. How would you describe your sense of humor? - dark
42. What things annoy you more than anything else? -
43. What kind of position are you in at the moment? - sitting
44. Do you wear much jewellery? - no
45. Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders? (State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc) - a president
46. Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own - NA
47. What do you carry your money in? - my pocket
48. Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not? - yes, I drive a long way everyday, so I almost have to like it.
49. Longest drive you have ever been on? - 8hr
50. Furthest away from home you have ever been? - across the country.
51. How many times have you moved house? - at least 3
52. What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture? - a bottle of water
53. How many devices do you own which can access the internet? - two
54. Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy? - yes
55. Is there anything that always makes you sad? - yes
56. What programs do you currently have open? - firefox, email, exploder
57. What do you associate the color red with? - fire, passion
58. Last strong smell you can remember smelling? - coffee this AM.
59. Last healthy thing you ate? - salad
60. Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day? - coffee, approx 6 cups a day
61. What do you associate the color blue with? oddly, cool and warmth.
62. How long is the closest ruler you can find? - 12 inches
63. What color pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing? - beige
64. When was the last time you drank water? - today
65. How often do you clear your browser history? - about once a wk
66. Do you believe nude photos can be artistic, rather than erotic? - yes
67. Ever written fanfiction for anything? - no
68. Last formal event you attended - probably a wedding
69. If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why? - no.
70. Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside? - beach
71. Roughly how many people live in your town? - dont know
72. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? - no
73. Favorite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores - on line.
74. Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one? - yes, s4
75. What is your least favorite colour, and why? - pink...because....pink
76. How do you spell grey/gray? - grey, although I'm supposed to spell it gray.
77. Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link) - NA
78. What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow? - NA
79. How many posts do you have? - Unknown
80. How many posts have you liked? - Unknown/NA
81. Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content? - NA
82. Do you track any tags? - NA
83. What time is it currently? - 6.41PM
84. Is there anything you should be doing right now? - Working

Killing time...procrastinating...

1. Do you have any regrets? Yes
2. Do you have a deep, dark secret? Yes
3. Have you ever hurt someone? Yes
4. Have you ever self-harmed? Yes
5. How would you like to be remembered? That I tried to be a good person.
6. Who are the three most important people in your life? M, L, Family
7. Was there one event that changed your life and the way you think? Yes
8. Would you sacrifice everything for love? Yes
9. Are you afraid of dying? Sometimes
10. Have you ever been abused? No
11. Have you ever been in love? Yes
12. Are you happy with who you are? Sometimes
13. Would you ever give up your life to save someone else’s? Yes
14. Have you changed at all in the last year? Yes
15. Would you ever settle for someone you didn’t feel was “the one”? I would hope not.
16. Is there someone you can tell everything to without fear of judgment? Yes
17. Are you pursuing your dreams? I'm trying
18. Do actions speak louder than words? Yes
19. Is there something you would never do? Yes
20. What makes you uncomfortable? The thought that I'm hurting someone I care for...

9 Loves

My nine loves...in no particular order....

9. Reading...I love to read. I've been trying to get back into reading. I had recently fell into a bad funk, with nothing really grabbing me. Hopefully, my latest attempt will work. :)

8. Dogs and Birds - I currently have two dogs and used to own a bird. I have had dogs in my life since I can remember. I've had a bird for most of my life, two total.

7. Coffee...physically addicted to coffee. Well, ok, maybe it's the caffeine I'm addicted to, but I do enjoy the taste of coffee.

6. Rain...the smell of rain, the feel of rain, the thunder and lightning that accompany rain.

5. Tater Tots! Yes. I love tater tots...in fact....someone *cough* *cough* M *cough* owes me some tots! Just saying. LOL

4. Socks....I know, I know. Weird! But I'm always wearing socks. I sleep in them, wear them all the time except for when I shower. lol.

3. Family and friends. They sometimes drive me nuts, but I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. Whether those friends are near (D&L) or far (M), I love them all for all different reasons. I hope they will forever be in my life. I truly can't imagine my life without them.

2. Going to concerts - Kinda goes with loving music, but I am separating these. Because while I love music, I love going to shows. The experience is on a whole other level. I almost get a physical high from going to shows. Being in the pit among all those people who get the same high, rock to the same thing or appreciate the music in the same way...nothing can describe it. With a great crowd, it propels the artists higher. They feed off it. It's the best thing to see and experience.

1. Music - I love music. It has kept me sane and alive. I can't describe how important music is in my life. It comforts me and calms me. It's there when people aren't there or can't be here. It reminds me of the great times I've had in my life. It has always been in my life. It has rarely failed me.

Some Faves....killing time.

Name Your Favorite…

1. Place -
2. Person - I have three amazing friends, M, L and D.
3. Color - Black
4. Food - peanut butter
5. Smell - cinnamon
6. Book - too many to list one, Skeleton Crew, being one of them
7. Movie - too many to list one, Pulp Fiction, being one of them
8. Music artist - too many to list one, Tool, being one of them
9. Genre of music - Rock
10. Genre of literature - Mystery/Suspense
11. Magazine - None
12. Texture - Don't really have one
13. Time of day - Evening
14. Day of the week - Friday
15. Tumblr - DNA
16. Thing to do when bored - Read or watch TV
17. Celebrity - Don't really have one
18. Class in school - Was math and/or science
19. Website other than Tumblr - FB
20. Drink - coffee
21. Precious stone - garnet
22. Animal - Dog or bird or butterfly
23. Flower - Don't really have one
24. Time in history - 40's-00's
25. Font - Don't have a preference
26. Video game - Frogger lol.
27. TV show - Wonderfalls or The X-Files
28. Play - Hamlet
29. Sound - My niece laughing
30. Fruit - ripe honeydew melon
31. Vegetable - carrot
32. Store/shop - book store
33. Article of clothing you own - band shirts
34. Fashion/style - casual
35. Pattern - red with black polka dots
36. Workout - lifting wts
37. Quote - quod me nutrit me destruit
38. Historical figure - Beethoven
39. Boy’s name -
40. Girl’s name -
41. Potato chip flavor - vinegar and salt
42. Meal of the day - lunch
43. Ice cream flavor - vanilla or rocky road
44. Soda - dr pepper
45. Popcorn flavor - butter
46. Season - pepper
47. Month of the year - October
48. Word - Don't have one
49. Disney princess - Don't really have one.
50. Insult -
51. Joke -
52. Cussword - f
53. Letter - A
54. YouTube channel - Don't have a fave
55. Eye color - light colored.
56. Memory - too many to list. Anything where I'm traveling with my BFF(s)
57. Dessert - brownies
58. Candy - snickers
59. Restaurant -
60. Lifehack -
61. Language - latin
62. Thing to learn about - space
63. Thing about yourself - don't have one.

Secrets

10 Secrets....
ok, so these won't be deep secrets, per se.... more like fluff secrets.

1. I don't generally crave chocolate. Sweets, yeah, chocolate, no.
2. I get an emotional "high" going to concerts.
3. Cereal....I love me some cereal. Honey Bunches of Oat/Almond and Cinnamon Chex are my faves.
4. I wear socks all the time and have a pair of "inside the house" shoes.
5. Actually, yes, I actually like the taste of beer.
6. Love, love, love to read. (I'm kinda fighting my way out of funk right now, but I love reading.)
7. I do enjoy watching TV. I have my programs, but sometimes (more often than not) I will loose track of them or miss them thinking I'll catch up later. Nope. I fail to do this.
8. I love birds and dogs. Big dogs. I think I'll always have a dog in my life and do often miss having a bird.
9. Sometimes, I wish I was a decent cook.
10. Coffee....I am addicted to coffee. Physically, addicted.

Ok, so those are my 10 not-so-secret secrets. If you know me, these aren't shocking.

FML

i am toxic.

Update 3 June: can't think straight!

listing stuff

Have you ever:

   

1) Self-harmed? No

2) Gotten into a real fight? Yes, it lasted a few seconds.

3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? No

4) No Comment

5) Had to lie to everyone about how you felt? Yes.

6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? Yes

7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? Yes

8) Accused someone of using you? No

9) Shoplifted? Probably as a kid.

10) Gotten drunk/high? Yes

11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? Yes

12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? No

Right now, are you:

   

13) Suicidal? No

14) Bored? A little.

15) Avoiding someone? No

16) Avoiding some task? Sleep

17) Depressed? Maybe

18) Crying? No

19) Annoyed with a friend? NO

20) Worried and confused about something important to you? Always

Do you:

21) Get depressed easily? I dont think so.

22) Get jealous/envious easily? No

23) Feel like listening to music can take your mind off things? Yes

24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? No

25) Try hard in all your classes at school? DNA

26) Go out drinking? Yes

27) Smoke cigarettes? No

28) Smoke weed? No

29) Do any hard drugs? No

30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, why? DNA

31) Believe in God/belong to a religion of your own free will? Yes

32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? Used to

33) Agree that self-harm numbs emotional pain? I guess it can

34) Believe people deserve second chances? Yes

36) Think things will get better? Yes

37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? Yes

38) Judge people who think differently to you? No, or at least try not to.

Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:

   

39) Long hair or short hair? on the shorter side, but sometimes long hair is awesome.

40) Nice smile or nice abs? Smile

42) Shy or open? open.

43) Eyes or body? eyes

44) Religious or non-religious? no preference

45) Caring or non-restricting of you? a little of both

47) Piercings or no piercings? nothing too crazy

48) Tattoos or no tattoos? either.

49) Quiet stay-at-home type or party type? sometimes a little both.

50) Has friends you get along with or has parents you get along with? sure.

Would you:

   

51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? I have.

52) Smoke weed? Not at the risk of my job.

53) Smoke cigarettes? No

54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? no

55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? probably

56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? no.

57) Keep your faith no matter what? would try.

58) Join a band as a part-time activity? no, i have no talent for it.

59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? yes, of course.

60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone goes against them? yes and no.

61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what it's like? did it for a year.

62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? stand up for them, but fight? if it came to that, yes.

63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? no, because i dont willing post them on line.

64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? yes. but it's not putting up with those friends. we would agree to disagree. i wouldn't force my beliefs on them and they wouldn't force their beliefs on me.

66) Not like someone simply because your friend didn't like them? no.

67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? Yes

68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? NO. that doesn't work for long.

69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes, then which part of you? no.

70) Sleep naked? yes, on occasion.

So that lasted long....lol

Yeah. i was supposed to do this everyday!

1. What you ate
2. what you did for exercise (or didn't)
3. what you did with your life - exually, socially, morally...whatever lights your fire.

and i failed. i thought about it, but didn't do it. is that progress?
lol

so, i'll summarize the memorial day weekend....

1. Ate BBQ, carne asada tacos, brew. :)
2. Walked for about 20-30 minutes a few of those days.
3. Hung out with friends one day, hung out with family the other, did some shopping. 

23 May 2014

1. Ate a some tuna, a salad, hummus and coffee...lol, thank da lawd I am not going to kiss anyone. lol.
2. Took a 20 minute walk.
3. I tried to see the meteor shower,  but couldn't see it.

22 May 2014 - Edited

1. Ate a sandwich with pesto spread. Had a tamale for dinner.
2. Going to do some arm exercises
3. Didn't do much with my life today. Worked, mostly.

Edit update:
2. wound up passing out last night and didn't get to do my arm exercises. :/ Will have to do them tonight, 23 May, and some walking maybe.

A post shared by a friend

The simple log.
so, my friend shared a post from lifehacker: Write about these three things daily to take command of your life.
I'm paraphrasing here...

1. What you ate
2. what you did for exercise (or didn't)
3. what you did with your life - exually, socially, morally...whatever lights your fire.


so, i'm going to try this....let's see how long this lasts. lol

Caffeine

Caffeine....definitely mainlining the coffee today.

Not everything....well

Fallaces Sunt Rerum Species


i need new glasses. hmmm. Zenni to the rescue! :D

Yeah, Baby!

It's a Tool kind of day!!!!

Listening to Tool for the rest of the day!

Here's a fav of mine: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hglVqACd1C8

SOTD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z5rRZdiu1UE

lol. this song has totally invaded my brain.

All the answers....maybe.

1: Name - What some people call me.
2: Age - I celebrate anniversaries of my 21st.
3: 3 Fears - Dentists, disappointing others, hurting others
4: 3 things I love - Music, books, coffee
5: 4 turns on - neck kisses, wrist rubs, kindness, intelligence
6: 4 turns off - meanness,
7: My best friend - i have 3 and they are amazing
8: Sexual orientation - on top. bwahahaha!
9: My best first date - music was involved!
10: How tall am I - ave ht
11: What do I miss - my bff
12: What time were I born - in the AM
13: Favorite color - black
14: Do I have a crush - yes.
15: Favorite quote - quod me nutrit me destruit (what nourishes me destroys me)
16: Favorite place - bed
17: Favorite food - cookies, caramel apples
18: Do I use sarcasm - never, only when i talk, write.
19: What am I listening to right now - kbaq (classical music)
20: First thing I notice in new person - their eyes
21: Shoe size - 9
22: Eye color - mine are brown
23: Hair color - my hair color is brown
24: Favorite style of clothing - comforatable
25: Ever done a prank call? - about 23 yrs ago
27: Meaning behind my URL - uniform resource locator
28: Favorite movie - too many
29: Favorite song - too many
30: Favorite band - too many
31: How I feel right now - confused, down, nervous, anxious
32: Someone I love - yes, there is.
33: My current relationship status - is ongoing
34: My relationship with my parents - is pretty amazing
35: Favorite holiday - Halloween
36: Tattoos and piercing i have - three piercings
37: Tattoos and piercing i want - many
38: The reason I joined Tumblr - didn't, havn't, wont.
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? - nope
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - yes
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? - yes
42: When did I last hold hands? - a long time ago. seems like forever.
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? -15 minutes, approximately
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? - no and i'm due.
45: Where am I right now? - home
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? - no one. it's my own damn fault.
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? - loud. is there any other way to listen to music?
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
49: Am I excited for anything? - yes! coming vacation!
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? - nope.
51: How often do I wear a fake smile? - quite a bit
52: When was the last time I hugged someone? - just the other day, bro hugged me. :)
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? - i'd be hurt.
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? - maybe
55: What is something I disliked about today? - hurting someone else.
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? - my bff
57: What do I think about most? - work
58: What’s my strangest talent? - being able to wiggle my ears
59: Do I have any strange phobias? - probably
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - behind
61: What was the last lie I told? - if someone has, i wouldnt know it.
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? - neither
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? - yes, yes
64: Do I believe in magic? - nope
65: Do I believe in luck? - yes, sometimes.
66: What's the weather like right now? - kinda cold for me.
67: What was the last book I've read? - cover to cover, i dont remember.
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? - haha, not necessarily like, but tolerate.
69: Do I have any nicknames? - yes
70: What was the worst injury I've ever had? - seat belt injury
71: Do I spend money or save it? - both
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? - nope
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? - oh hell no!
74: Favorite animal? - bird and dogs
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? - watching tv, i think
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? - lol, i have not a clue
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? - sober
78: How can you win my heart? - with patience
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? - not sure if i want to be buried
80: What is my favorite word? - snickerdoodle (i dont even like the cookie, but i just like the way it sounds)
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr - dont have any
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? - i probably wouldnt say anything.
83: Do I have any relatives in jail? - none that i know of.
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? - invisibility
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? - there are quite a few.
86: What is my current desktop picture? - i've got them on a rotating basis, but it would probably be of my niece or of my adventures in boston.
87: Had sex? - no comment
88: Bought condoms? - nope, but i wouldnt be above it.
89: Gotten pregnant? - not that i'm aware of...lol. nope.
90: Failed a class? - yes
91: Kissed a boy? - no comment
92: Kissed a girl? - no comment
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? - no, but that sounds amazing
94: Had a job? - yes
95: Left the house without my wallet? - yes
96: Bullied someone on the internet? - i hope not.
97: Had sex in public? - nope
98: Played on a sports team? - yes
99: Smoked weed? - no comment....lol.
100: Did drugs? - nope.
101: Smoked cigarettes? - tried and failed.
102: Drank alcohol? - yes
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? - not currently
104: Been overweight? - been and am.
105: Been underweight? - never
106: Been to a wedding? - yes
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? - yes
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? - yes
109: Been outside my home country? - yes
110: Gotten my heart broken? - yes
111: Been to a professional sports game? - yes
112: Broken a bone? - yes
113: Cut myself? - yes, but not intentionally
114: Been to prom? - yes
115: Been in airplane? - yes
116: Fly by helicopter? - no, but would love to
117: What concerts have I been to? - too many to list
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? - lol. no comment
119: Learned another language? - not successfully
120: Wore make up? - yes
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? - no comment
122: Had oral sex? - no comment
123: Dyed my hair? - yes
124: Voted in a presidential election? - yes
125: Rode in an ambulance? - not that i remember
126: Had a surgery? - no
127: Met someone famous? - yes
128: Stalked someone on a social network? - lol. i dont think so.
129: Peed outside? - yes
130: Been fishing? - yes
131: Helped with charity? - yes
132: Been rejected by a crush? - yes
133: Broken a mirror? - yes
134: What do I want for birthday? - nothing. no one ever believes me or listens to me, but i would rather not do anything.

27: Meaning behind my URL - uniform resource locator...lol. self explanatory.
61: What was the last lie I told? - -edit- read incorrectly..."fine"

Celebrating a friend's Bday!